I’ve been thinking tonight… to be broken open, repeatedly, to the maximum expression of the heart possible, to become the ultimate expression of Love — no matter how painful or pleasureful the path — is the ultimate purpose. It is the deepest desire of the soul. My soul.

haha! All the waiting around and complaining and stuff we like to do. Think of something that would be fun to do every day and create our own jobs. I dont want somebody else’s job or their rules. And to wait around for it on top of that?

Oh Great Love that brought me into being and, all the angels and guides who have helped me through… Please conspire together to open my heart so that I love, and love, and love. May I never know this desolate coldness of heart ever again.

A letter to my dead girlfriend This brought up a lot of stuff inside me. I can feel it. But I don’t know what yet.

This is a little peek into my world up in the attic at night. I’m in Portland. It’s a lovely home. And that is Lionel Marley Greatheart. He was hand knitted by a very special Kenyan woman. Lionel is not only full-blooded African, he is also very much real and alive. The more time we