Seriously, if there had to be any more signs that the direction I am forging towards with all my strength and heart is the right one for me, and that no matter what, I will always be alright, there will always be more than enough to keep me safe to keep me happy… well a grand piano would have to drop on my head. Wait, let me rephrase that – I DO NOT want a grand piano to fall on my head, because I am starting to see, very clearly, that every single thing I want with all my heart and that I have asked for lately, ever since I started living in harmony with my inner course, I am receiving. In uncanny timing and with abundance. No pianos please!!<\/p>\n
I probably wouldn’t have written this to get it out of my system if I could have got hold of her tonight — freaking Angela. A friend from years back who has been such a gift to me, moreso than ever before for a long conversation we had a few nights ago that helped me through a very rough spot and back onto this lovely road. For that one conversation alone I feel more enriched and warmed by her very life every day, and so lucky that she caught me when she did. Well, she didn’t just stop there…<\/p>\n
So today, two packages arrived at the Marathon Motel and RV Park, for moi, and this time they weren’t bills they were presents! The first was a present to myself — a set of new high-end trail runners reduced to almost nothing, at a very risky tiny but only size left, purchased highly unusually on credit card. But I was assured by my own internal guide that they would fit me and that I would be able to pay off that credit card soon. And they did fit! 100{a9f0d31f6175b3e4775e11a66c07db268fb74408d6095f6b46eeec420c0e9f62}, with a little space to spare. And really, they were too small, so I was unbelievably lucky. Now I have the shoes I need to do the Appalachian Trail in March — one tiny step closer to that dizzying dream.<\/p>\n
The second box, much smaller from Amazon. A beautiful package wrapped with a ribbon and a note that read, <\/em><\/p>\n “Dear Olivia, I hope that you enjoy being able to capture and keep your experiences again. With warmest wishes and fuzzy love, Angela”<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Seriously, no… wait, how did she know I was desperately yearning for a camera? Did she perhaps notice the horribly fuzzy photos I’ve been taking anyway and putting up on my blog? No wait, its not a camera. Why on earth would she send me such a big gift, for no reason at all? Okay stop freaking out, just open it! As a precursor to this day, for about the last month or so I have been really wishing I had a way to capture this time, wishing my cameraphone lens wasn’t so scratched, but still feeling so lucky that I had a way to capture something at least. Then it started to feel more urgent, as I thought about doing the Appalachian Trail next year too, and knowing that I would need a tiny but seriously plush camera for that but, if only I could afford it now – to be able to beautifully capture all the incredible things that are happening in my life at this time. Every single day I thought about the one I wanted. I remember very clearly one night I was alone, sitting on the RV potty feeling a bit bummed about the breakup, and then thinking about all the good things that are coming into my life because of it! But then that bummed me too, thinking I couldn’t take any decent photos of it all. But then that voice inside that has guided me through all of this said,<\/p>\n “Why are you even worried? Seriously! Haven’t you noticed yet <\/strong>how you have gotten every single thing you have needed <\/strong>up until now? huh? You’ll get that camera. You won’t have to wait too long. Just keep focussed on the one you want, and it will come like magic. And while you’re at it, QUIT worrying about where the money is going to come from for the Appalachian Trail!<\/strong> That’s taken care of too!”<\/em><\/p>\n I smiled, flushed, washed my hands, walked off and curled up on my bed with a good book and the cats, and I fell asleep very very content. Little did I know it would turn up a week later! I thought I’d have to buy the freaking thing.<\/p>\n There have been many other signs too along the way. I’ll slip them into blog posts as I go along this journey. There are really so many its quite ridiculous even.\u00a0 Take note anyone who wants to try this. Its not that I’m lucky, its that I’m living in complete focus on what is right for me. Focus on what you want, want it with all your heart, believe you already have it, and then just wait to receive. It has worked for me every single time. In every case where I have been anxious or not fully believing I can have something, I have lost it.<\/p>\n I know what I want, and I know I will get there. In the mean time, everything that happens is part of the Great Adventure.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Seriously, if there had to be any more signs that the direction I am forging towards with all my strength and heart is the right one for me, and that no matter what, I will always be alright, there will always be more than enough to keep me safe to keep me happy… well a […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[212,220,408,213,271,246,257],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4646","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blogalog","category-desireth","category-diary","category-food-for-thought","category-free-stuff","category-friends","category-photos"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/yummy-wakame.com\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4646","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/yummy-wakame.com\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/yummy-wakame.com\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yummy-wakame.com\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yummy-wakame.com\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4646"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/yummy-wakame.com\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4646\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/yummy-wakame.com\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4646"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yummy-wakame.com\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4646"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yummy-wakame.com\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4646"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nInside — Oh my gosh, I saw the Fuji logo and thought, wait a sec, it cant be a Fuji – those are the ONLY CAMERAS I LIKE! How did she know? She couldnt know. And then I saw… no freaking WAY! It’s the Fujifilm Finepix J28 – the camera I was looking at, at 3am the other night absolutely WISHING I COULD AFFORD IT RIGHT NOW! *shaking like crazy at this point* I saw the pretty picture on the outside of the box, it was silver. As I opened it I thought, I bet, I JUST BET that this one is going to be BLACK just like the one I wanted! Yep. Black. I felt happy tears well up in my sparkling eyes. This is what Christmas felt like when I was a kid. I just stood there stunned for a moment, my heart literally jumping out of my chest, and then I started jumping up and down and screaming and then I just threw my arms around my new RV-mate and lovely friend Stephanie, who was laughing ridiculously hard too! It was just so UNBELIEVABLE!!!<\/p>\n