Since I arrived back from the adventure I’ve been experiencing a strange but undeniably powerful inhale of energy from so many individuals. A small mountain of parcels awaited me in the tiny post office, my inbox was flooded with new work and old friends reconnecting in big ways, my phone hasn’t stopped ringing or beeping, and my little RV home has become the Marathon Meetup Epicenter or something like that. People visiting at all hours and for all lengths of time, lounging out here, drinking tea, talking about every unusual thing under the desert sun. Like they have been starved of the opportunity to talk about the most wonderful things anyone could talk about, and I’m lucky enough to get to discuss all this stuff with them. <\/p>\n
Usually I would feel overwhelmed by spending so much time interacting with people, so much intensity, my mind working overtime looking at things from every angle and adapting to each individual, hours and hours a day on the phone throughout and sometimes until the sun rises, and having extended visits with friends… but somehow its just flowing, its just all working out, and it feels so easy, so peaceful and free. There seems to be SO MUCH TIME to just BE these days. So much time. To soak in all the vibing wonderfulness of each and every individual who I have the privilege of completely taking in for the time they are with me. And they are with me wholly and completely, listening and sharing at a level I never imagined possible with so many people, some of whom never open up yet it all just comes out like its what I’m there for. I used to shy away from this sort of thing all the time, I think I was afraid to emotionally connect for years, to really give of myself, and to receive in such an unlimited way. Like I didnt know what to do with it all. But now I am totally open and it feels so wonderful to be in this space. To feel the energy move back and forth between us. Its almost as if I can see the magnetic pull as they walk towards me, eyes lighting up, I can certainly feel the pull, and it feels good. Where is it coming from?<\/p>\n
I dont worry about if there’s enough time to maintain all these friendships at the level of input that its happening now, if I’ll be able to keep this up, because I really don’t know, and I am just happy to enjoy it. I used to worry about that all the time and hold back, because I didnt want to set things up at a level I couldnt maintain. I’m just enjoying what it is right now. Eventually this deep inhale, that feels like a vortex, a magnetism that’s drawing so many spirited souls towards me, will turn into an incredible bellowing exhale, and I can’t wait to feel what that’s all about. I think I’m going to burst into packets of light that will just shower everyone who’s come to me. I wonder if it will happen around the time I set out on the Appalachian Trail in March, or if its going to be a continuous inhale and exhale that I feel from now onwards, like the neverending expansion and contraction of the universe, of our heartbeats, now that I am in tune with it. But I know that eventually the exhale has to come, because it would be impossible to maintain this level of receiving and not become overloaded with it. Too much of anything can become toxic. Soon it will be time to give back, and its going to be in such a big big way. I can’t wait to find out how it happens, and what it feels like, what flows from this. I have a feeling my energy is going to permanently expand, and perhaps my aura will be thick and huge because the size I feel these days, the spirit inside me, feels far far too big for this tiny body of mine.<\/p>\n
I realise this is a really odd thing to write about, but I thought I’d just go along with it and see what came out as I typed anyway. Perhaps someone will know what the friggin frag I’m talking about. haha<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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