03 Aug 2011

Decisions need to be made

But the moment before decision is the fork in the road, the neutral ground of possibility.

Just the word makes me salivate. I’m in love with possibility. When left to fantasise about what’s possible, everything is amazing. But, it’s still not real yet, and nothing is guaranteed. And outcomes are so often not what we planned because sadly we screw up, a lot. Well, I do.

I had all of existence before I came into being to imagine every possibility, and possibly all of existence after I die, floating around in the soup of all our possibilities. This life is the one chance we have, that I know of, to take action on these ideas. That’s what living is, as opposed to existing.

So somehow, I have to get over this fear of messing up and actually make a decision at some point. Starting with where Frolina and I are going to live once I leave Pittsburgh. I dont know why it’s taking so long to figure out where I’m going next. Maybe in a little bit more time it will all make sense.

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